Come to me

I looked back through my search history and 2 weeks ago it was still places to visit in Spain, Portugal and Morocco.  But since then it has changed to “mastectomy scars”, “side effects of chemo”, “breast reconstruction” etc.  I haven’t done any specific searches on cancer stages or treatments because I don’t want to overwhelm myself with anecdotes from people who may or may not have the same type of cancer I have. I am waiting for those searches when we have more information after the surgery.

But now it seems that we are in a place where we not only have to think about beating cancer we have to think about planning for our future.  A future that seems tenuous at the moment.  We would like to have children and were just starting to have the conversation of when we would really start trying.  And now the decision has become much more urgent as we face, most likely, several rounds of chemo.  This treatment will do a number on my body and we have to make choices now about how we can protect our fertility.  I have been forced to hold my future very lightly and to trust that God will direct the path.

We had just returned from the Dr. to discuss our fertility options and a very new but kindred friend left this song on my Facebook.  Absolutely Perfect. Don’t look to the right or to the left…keep your eyes on me…you will not be shaken…you will not be moved.


1-04 Come to Me (feat. Jenn Johnson)

I am the Lord your God,
I go before you now.
I stand beside you
I’m all around you
And though you feel I’m far away
I’m closer than your breath
I am with you
More than you know

I am the Lord your peace
No evil will conquer you
Steady now your heart and mind
Come into my rest
And oh, let your faith arise
And lift up your weary head
I am with you
Wherever you go

Come to me, I’m all you need
Come to me, I’m everything
Come to me, I’m all you need
Come to me, I’m your everything

I am your anchor, in the wind and the waves
And I am your steadfast, so don’t be afraid
Though your heart and flesh may fail you
I’m your faithful strength
And I am with you
Wherever you go

Come to me, I’m all you need
Come to me, I’m your everything
Come to me, I’m all you need
Come to me, I’m your everything

Don’t look to the right or to the left, keep your eyes on me
You will not be shaken, you will not be moved

I am the hand to hold, I am the truth, I am the way
Just come to me, come to me
Cause I’m all that you need

4 thoughts on “Come to me

  1. This post brings tears to my eyes. I have the most profound faith that your desire for a family and children WILL lead you to that destiny with God’s blessing for the perfect time and place!

  2. Lynnea, I’ve been thinking about you and Jonathan so much, and praying that you have you feel a deep strength and peace as you head into surgery tomorrow, and that you are given the gift of rest tonight. I am touched beyond words by your blog and am especially moved by your strength, determination, and openness. I keep asking myself….how did I get so lucky to have such an amazing sister in law? Followed by….I have to spend more time with her! Tim and I are looking forward to seeing you and Jonathan in a few weeks. We love you so much and are thinking of you daily. Love, Leah

  3. Lynnea you are just amazing! No other words to describe you girl! You love birds are always on my mind and I know you’ll get through this. Thank you so much for sharing and keeping us updated. Count me in for that next half marathon!!! Love Sarah and Jade

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