Tomorrow is the day that seemed to come lightning fast and excruciatingly slow at the same time. The surgery itself is not the hardest part for me, it is the information that will follow. We will then know what kind of cancer it is, how far they think it has spread and the treatment path. I live in this tension where I want to know the specifics of what I am fighting (again…I’m an engineer we like facts and details) and I don’t want to know because not knowing is a protection from facing it. I recognize the only path is to put one foot in front of the other and keep moving forward but that does not make it easy to take. In some ways it feels like the anticipation I felt before starting my first 1/2 marathon. I know that I need to get to the finish line. I would like to do it running…but I don’t know what the course will throw at me…how my body will feel…or how mentally tough I can be…but I know I will get there as long as I keep moving forward. I am now standing at the starting line of cancer but I don’t know how long my race is going to be. But I trust that God will keep me moving forward however possible that is in the moment.
Specific prayer requests and the timeline of the surgery (all times are in local Netherlands time GMT +1)
6 am – Please pray for rest
7:00 am – We will be arriving at the hospital…please pray against anxiety, for peace and comfort.
9:30-11:00 – I will be in surgery…please pray for the wisdom and skill of the surgeon. Peace and comfort for my family.
After 11:00 – Recovery…
- Pray specifically that the cancer has been contained within the breast and the 1 lymph node
- Through this please pray for a boldness in our faith we are navigating this path in a largely atheist population and want to proclaim Jesus loudly