Our brains are amazing things. They are the command center for our entire body…taking information in the form of electrical impulses from all the senses and synthesizing it into…sound…touch…taste…images. We can manipulate complex arguments and form opinions. We take the information we receive and fit it into our framework of the world around us. As we see and experience new things (hopefully) that framework adapts and changes.
But then there are things that happen that just don’t make sense. Realities that I can’t fit into my framework because I can’t get my brain around it. How do 3 teenagers go from being bored to taking an innocent life? Bored!? That is so delusional and self consumed with such an extreme disconnect from the reality and consequence of their actions. Senseless. My heart breaks for Christopher Lane’s family.
There are days when I feel like I view the world through the emotional equivalent of 3D glasses with each eye letting in a different image. One eye lets in the beauty, hope, redemption and love. New Life. A breath taking sunset. Forgiveness. While the other eye lets in pain, heartbreak, wounds and suffering. A senseless killing. Selfishness. Evil.
My brain attempts to make sense of this information. To merge both images into one. I can’t do it. I don’t believe things will ever make sense this side of heaven. And I’m going to leave it there recognizing that some things don’t fit.
I believe God exists…a good, loving, merciful, graceful, personal God.
I believe evil also exists…evil that wounds, kills, hates and enslaves.
I also believe that even though I don’t understand how everything works around me, I want to be a person in this world that chooses love, hope and redemption…amidst the chaos and pain.
I’ll leave you with this beautiful song from David Crowder Band.
…And I don’t know what to do with a love like that
and I don’t know how to be a love like that.
When all the love in the world is right here among us
and hatred too
So, we must choose what our hands will do
Where there is pain…let there be grace
Where there is suffering…bring serenity
For those afraid…help them be brave
Where there is misery…bring expectancy
Surely we can change something…
Surely we can change something.