What, you don’t know what that is? I didn’t either…but I have it. “Scanxiety” is a word used (primarily in cancer circles) to describe the “uneasiness” or anxiety patients have around waiting for the results of diagnostic testing. Especially cancer patients. We already know how bad the results can be.
I have my first set of tests tomorrow since my world was flipped upside down a year ago. I fully expect them to come back normal but the fear is there…lurking…in the back of my mind. What if the chemo didn’t get it all? What if the Tamoxifen is not working and it comes back? What if it spreads? At this point there is nothing I can do except be vigilant in checking and attempt to let go of the things I can’t control. But with these tests you never really know until the results are in and even then it is a momentary reprieve from the unknown.
I am at least thankful I live in an age where testing like this is possible…and I look forward to an age when cancer has been cured. I’ll send out an update tomorrow after my appointment.